apa you rasa .

i dapati agak susah untuk memulakan term paper i . orang kata , once you dah start buat and belek belek you punya term paper , you will feel like you never wanna stop doing it . i kata pulak , mana ada , bullshit semua tu . i dah cuba start . i cari itu , i cari ini then i tiba tiba stop . hahaha . senang je nak berhenti , tanpa paksaan pulak . banyak penipu kat dunia ni . apa you rasa ?


oh my god , im counting days . tinggal exactly 28 hari sebelum submission day and i cuma ada idea macamana nak buat only . bila lah ada rasa nak execute beban itu ? sekarang ? nope , tak rasa . sekejap lagi ? i dont think so . apa you rasa ?


OK OK bila dah tertekan sangat , tipu lah if i kata i tak ada rasa nak buat . for sure ada rasa . tapi , rasa je lah hahahahahaha ! i rasa i ni super duper pemalas yang tak akan maju dalam hidup if i keep doing this . menangguh kerja . i bet orang yang i hantar resume semua tu mesti reject i lepas baca blog ni no matter how impressive i punya resume pun . pemalas punya budak . buat apa ambil jadi pekerja ? bakal buat company rugi blah blah blah . apa you rasa ? 


sekarang i suka fikir benda benda seronok . i fikir bulan januari ni i nak pergi KL dan genting   . i fikir i rasa nak celebratate new year dekat KL and i fikir keseronokan bulan dua nanti . wow . seronoknya ! lagi , i fikir i nak kahwin . i fikir i nak kerja . i fikir i nak rumah sendiri . i fikir i nak keluarga sendiri . berangan berangan dan berangan lah semuanya . i bet you pun pernah fikir fikir merepek kan ? kalau you cakap you tak pernah . i tau you tipu . fikir lah , macamana nak ada semua yang di angan angan kan kecuali i start buat term paper ni . kalau tak , i fail . dah lah tak dapat apa yang i inginkan . siap dapat bebelan dan amarah percuma lagi . i rasa i akan cuba buat . esok . hahahaha . apa you rasa ? 

drifting . away .

 drifting 

Close your eyes, drift away think about that one person thats worth living for everyday . think about that smile that makes you melt . think how just the thought of that person makes your heart dance. Think how everything they say is so perfect , now open your eyes and realize . you're in love, not just any love, your madly, truly, deeply in love . Now close your eyes again and pray that these feelings will always stay .

i hope .

pungguk rindukan bulan .

i miss my boyfriend , ryan . we've been apart for . . i have no idea because it has been too long . i miss his everything . during this very stressful period of time , i need him . he's very busy with work , and i'm being selfish if i don't try to understand his situation . long distance relationship sucks  :[ 

i miss you . 

our last phone conversation did not go smoothly . i had a fit , i said stupid things , i made him worry because i was being stupid . im sorry baby , mwah . 

stress .

i am so stressed out with term paper . i am stressed out that i cannot be with encik boyfriend . i am stressed out because he just hung up on me . i am so stressed out having to stay in this messy room . i am stressed out for not being called yet for any interviews . i am stressed out i am gaining weight . i am stressed out that i couldnt get quality sleep every single night . i am stressed out that i have to wake up early every morning . i am so stressed out that i dont have any money right now in my purse and bank account . ah gila stress .

can i be here with encik boyfriend ?

benci stress stress .

currently listening to : the vines - winning days .

first entry . . baby !

it's about time i post an entry in this virtual space . i've had this breathing hole since forever but i'm just too frikkin' lazy i guess to post anything . i'll be blurting out everything here from now on , mostly complaints . major events in my not-so-fabulous life will be high-lighted here . 


much love , peace out .